If you were at my house right now...

...you'd see me in a bit of a twit.

Please tell me, have you ever wished for something so hard and prayed about it so much that you just knew it was what you were supposed to do?

And then it came about and you found yourself wondering, "Why in Heavens did I wish this on myself?"

Yes ma'am, that's where I'm at. In approximately 1.5 hours a camera crew from Zondervan will be descending upon my little abode ready to film me teaching all things wise and wonderful.

Yikes.

I suddenly don't feel very wise.

I suddenly feel awkwardly absent of wonderful words.

And, my house.

It does not feel wise and wonderful either.

I'm messy when I study. See? Hello piles of She Speaks notes and notebooks and study materials and oh that's where our Scrabble game has been hiding out.

Oh yes, I must show you where the introduction is going to be filmed... my laundry room. I know some of you have really swanky, beautifully organized laundry rooms. Would you kindly bring your laundry room over to my house and let me borrow it for the next 24 hours?

See? This is why...

But I guess since this study is about helping women find Jesus and apply his truth to everyday life... my house should be very everyday. And real, everyday life is messy. right?

See. I knew my bloggy sisters would make me feel better.

Now, if you can just pray my messages into my brain, that would be so nice. Otherwise I may start running away with random thoughts like, "Elijah was a dude in the Old Testament and I wonder if his laundry room was as messy as mine?"

Seriously, I tried to practice out loud today and my audience was not nearly as enthusiastic as I wished they would have been...

Is it my imagination or does he look a little sleepy?

Oh sisters, please know despite the silliness and obvious nervousness displayed in this post, I take the responsibility of what I'm about to be doing for the next three days very seriously. I feel the weight of leading women through the DVD material for "Becoming More Than a Good Bible Study Girl."

And I guess all I can say is I realize I need my Jesus sitting right here with me guiding my every word.

So, can you pray that for me?

Would you, could you, pause right now and pray. Thank you sweet friend. Thank you so much.

I'm feeling less in a twit already.

ps... Do you see that lovely new button over on the right side of my blog? It's (in)courage and it launches today! Click on their button and check it out. You'll find some cool chicks and wonderful products.

And I bet my friends Holly and Stephanie from DaySpring who are launching this new site are not at all in a twit today. They are the kind of girls who totally keep their cool. I love that.